never mind !!

Aug 14th, 2010 4:07 AM CST:

m jus not doin anything... well, i am on FB.. religiously (or shud i say joblessly :P ) going thru all useless updates by fellow jobless jokers of the world.. n chattin wid Divz.. dunno y but i felt like talkin to only her althou i see many other friends online.. newayz.. lemme talk about my mind now.. will write abt divz in a diff blog..

soooooo... now its 4:20 AM CST.. aaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnddddddd... and i dunno y m awake till now. no, i actually know.. m awake coz m not bloody feeling sleepy.. happy realization  !! okey.. so figured out y m awake.. now lets get to wat m doin now.. this is the toughest part.. all m doin is soooooo much insignificant to the world.. even to me.. thts coz wat m doing is negligible..n the 'negligible' part by itself is insignificant... let alone doin something.. i find it soo strange tht m not even thinkin anything.. top is soo lighly loaded now.. its like i lost my mind.. almost 0 thoughts goin on... processors utilization is abnormally low.. may be its an alarmin sign.. but sorry,  m not really equipped for reading signs at this time.... n the best part of all this is.. i kinda feel good abt the thot tht m not thinkin anything..  its like i lost my mind n m happy abt it.. like "thnx.. i got a break frm my mind.." hehe.. well, i know this isn't humour but i feel like smiling at my own loss..n as i think more abt it.. m, surprisinly, findin myself happy abt it.. m literally smiling while m typin this... dunno how long this "feel -good" feeling will wear me...but,  i sure am njoyin it..

i even tried to track my thoughts down... but couldn't .. n how will i do wen thr are no thots lingering at all..  its strange.. its surprising... n t feels good.. Mr. Cobb would be disappointed if he attemts to change my mind.. coz i dun hv one now.. :D

loosing mind .. is this independence day special?? is it not supposed to be celebration for "freedom of thot" and not "free of thot" ?? :P