never mind !!

Aug 14th, 2010 4:07 AM CST:

m jus not doin anything... well, i am on FB.. religiously (or shud i say joblessly :P ) going thru all useless updates by fellow jobless jokers of the world.. n chattin wid Divz.. dunno y but i felt like talkin to only her althou i see many other friends online.. newayz.. lemme talk about my mind now.. will write abt divz in a diff blog..

soooooo... now its 4:20 AM CST.. aaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnddddddd... and i dunno y m awake till now. no, i actually know.. m awake coz m not bloody feeling sleepy.. happy realization  !! okey.. so figured out y m awake.. now lets get to wat m doin now.. this is the toughest part.. all m doin is soooooo much insignificant to the world.. even to me.. thts coz wat m doing is negligible..n the 'negligible' part by itself is insignificant... let alone doin something.. i find it soo strange tht m not even thinkin anything.. top is soo lighly loaded now.. its like i lost my mind.. almost 0 thoughts goin on... processors utilization is abnormally low.. may be its an alarmin sign.. but sorry,  m not really equipped for reading signs at this time.... n the best part of all this is.. i kinda feel good abt the thot tht m not thinkin anything..  its like i lost my mind n m happy abt it.. like "thnx.. i got a break frm my mind.." hehe.. well, i know this isn't humour but i feel like smiling at my own loss..n as i think more abt it.. m, surprisinly, findin myself happy abt it.. m literally smiling while m typin this... dunno how long this "feel -good" feeling will wear me...but,  i sure am njoyin it..

i even tried to track my thoughts down... but couldn't .. n how will i do wen thr are no thots lingering at all..  its strange.. its surprising... n t feels good.. Mr. Cobb would be disappointed if he attemts to change my mind.. coz i dun hv one now.. :D

loosing mind .. is this independence day special?? is it not supposed to be celebration for "freedom of thot" and not "free of thot" ?? :P

Words of Aggression ??? ! ! !

It was in the air, i had no choice but breathe in,
replaced was blood; in my veins, it started flowing,
It instigates me, it makes me numb,
Damn !! Its driving my Adrenaline.

I lost self possession, yet i loved this confiscation,
its all chaos in brain, yet i love this confusion,
its driving me insane, yet i love this suffocation,
its riding my mind, yet i love this obsession.

It sucks the soul outta my body,
like the dementors of Hogwartz,
jets off towards the heavens,
but soon shoots it down to the netherworldz.

Over me that it plays all its wild wiles.
The moment i see it as Darth, it makes me bliss,
but not for long it prevails; soon i go pits,
That mischevious thing is master of many a ruse.

Down the memory lane...

Gone are those days,
far away by times,
but when school crosses ur mind,
u'll certainly go smiles.

Immature infatuations,
Heated up competetions,
No matter win or loose,
it was all celebrations.

Cricket was the craze, cricket was the passion,
play must go on; be it rain, be it sun,
never did we stop,even while examinations,
great were those days,it was a golden run.


No regrets for past,
No tensions for tommorrow,
Life's motto was simple,
"How to make this day beautiful !!"

Keep Smiling !!!

I wish i can take ur pain away,

and get all troubles off ur way,

coz one heartful smile from u...

believe me, it'll make my day.

I'm not sure, if i can get u the moon,

i don't promise to chill down the sun,

but if forever, i can make u smile...

i'd think my job is done.

Season's o my love

u show me evry weather,
january thru december,
spring to summer,
all o them.... together...


each of ur moods,
bliss or sad,
whrever u are,
far or beside,
every of ur move,
has a temperature,
in each of ur thought,
i can feel a weather,


its spring in ur eyes,
when ur heart is happy,
its a nice kool winter,
when ur mood is peppy,
i feel the summer,
in the warmth of ur breath,
and my eyes soak,
when i find u gloomy.


my spine feels a chill,
heat goes thru veins,
eyes become wet,
and all around is spring,
i can feel every season,
in synch, at once,
wen my heart says it 4 u,
"Sweetheart, I Love U"


Never u say "goodbye",
that will make me cry,
it will freeze my breath,
and for the last time,
u'd show me evry weather,
january thru december...
except spring, every temperature,
all o them..... together...